it's way past my bedtime since three weeks ago. one am on monday morning when i'm supposed to be sound asleep. mind unsettled tears started to roll real bad. even this dashboard is getting the effect. i just can't get that wink of sleep. my heart is telling me something that i don't understand. and i'm here hoping that i'll figure out her message. but it has been more than half an hour and i see no results. my mind is wandering away to a place where it ain't suppose to be. it's running wild just for the fact that mind can't read the heart. i feel so sore. down. tearful. mygoodness. i need to be out. i need air. i don't know if i'm strong enough for this. . . and most importantly, i don't know if i'm patient enough for this. . . i'm truely badly upset, for something, that i'm still trying hard to put the pieces together.